Blog the Second (Because I can't think of a more creative title right now)

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So today Idecided to google my own name. And it was genuinely (is that how you spellthat? I don't think it is. Spelling.) frightening. Like literally terrifying,because first off my twitter account came up which is weird because I don'teven really use it, but anyone who looks on my twitter page will now basicallysee a bunch of things about GSA and also know who my favorite actors are, andalso see only a few very poorly thought out tweets.

But alsoone of my poems that I submitted to Heliopoliscameup. That was actually really exciting because even though I’m terribly insecureabout anything I write and don’t think it’s any good, I’m kind of less scaredabout the fact that if anyone ever googles me, they’ll see that I’m a writer.Like, if a future boyfriend googled me to try and find out more about who I am,he would know that I was a poet. Of course, he would also actually see my poetry, which is scary. And thishypothetical boyfriend would also see a project I did on Steven Spielberg fordrama productions last month. That’s not too bad—though I did fail thatproject.

It occurredto me that, in addition to any personas we may carry around with us for thegratification of other people, we have this entire existence solely in relationto the realm of internet use. Like, everything we do online comes together tocreate this picture of who we are. That’s the most terrifying thing of all,really, because, 1) not only can you control what is out there on the internetabout you (most people, I think, don’t really know to what extent the internetexposes you), but, 2) anything on the internet, because it is only in part, isbound to create an inaccurate picture of who you are.

And,because the internet is some important, this existence we create on it can growto define a lot about us. you could even say that the existence you have on theinternet is what takes priority over every other first impression you try tocreate ever. I know, for example, that when I post something on facebook,

When we’retalking to people in person, we can control everything about ourselves tocreate an image. How we talk to them, what we say, how we look. On theinternet, everything we’ve ever posted can come back to haunt us; and thenpeople have this picture of our existence that we can’t control and that we maynot want to portray.

Basically, it all comes down tocontrol. We can control our image in reality, we can’t on the internet. Justsomething to think about.