"If I love you, what business of that is yours?" -Goethe

I find more and more that YouTube comment boxes simply don't have enough room for any kind of real answer to any question. How can you put a character limit on love? Christine, I hope this answers your question. Link!

Firstly, I have to say that I love P!nk's new album. Ironically, it is titled "The Truth About Love." I know right, totally unrelated. She says about love, "It's all the poetry that you ever heard." I think that P!nk's lyric may have just become a contestant for my favorite of all time, knocking out Ben Folds' "And don't forget, to give me back my black t-shirt." a lyric from his "Song for the Dumped."

On an unrelated note, I'm going to try and limit the number of times I actually use the word love in this post; yet I will inevitably find it surprising just how much we tend to devalue this word by using it to refer to ultimately inconsequential things.

I hope you enjoy all this music. It is my beleif that the best songs in the world--the ones we listen to every day, the ones we love-- are the ones that are about heartbreak. Pain is what gives us our inspiration.

I think that love is what happens when you care about someone. Love is that answer that we keep trying to pin down but can never quite get to the bottom of. It's a paradox: simple and complicated at the same time. Love is the same for everyone. And yet everyone's love is so extraordinarily different that it's not. Love is someone loving most about you what you hate most about yourself.

Here are a few more quotes for you guys. I hope they illuminate something about love for you. I like them, at least.

 Kisses are like tears. The real ones are the ones you can't hold back.
-Author Unknown  

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.
-Anais Nin  

Blog the Second (Because I can't think of a more creative title right now)

 You must wacth this video before you read the below post:

So today Idecided to google my own name. And it was genuinely (is that how you spellthat? I don't think it is. Spelling.) frightening. Like literally terrifying,because first off my twitter account came up which is weird because I don'teven really use it, but anyone who looks on my twitter page will now basicallysee a bunch of things about GSA and also know who my favorite actors are, andalso see only a few very poorly thought out tweets.

But alsoone of my poems that I submitted to Heliopoliscameup. That was actually really exciting because even though I’m terribly insecureabout anything I write and don’t think it’s any good, I’m kind of less scaredabout the fact that if anyone ever googles me, they’ll see that I’m a writer.Like, if a future boyfriend googled me to try and find out more about who I am,he would know that I was a poet. Of course, he would also actually see my poetry, which is scary. And thishypothetical boyfriend would also see a project I did on Steven Spielberg fordrama productions last month. That’s not too bad—though I did fail thatproject.

It occurredto me that, in addition to any personas we may carry around with us for thegratification of other people, we have this entire existence solely in relationto the realm of internet use. Like, everything we do online comes together tocreate this picture of who we are. That’s the most terrifying thing of all,really, because, 1) not only can you control what is out there on the internetabout you (most people, I think, don’t really know to what extent the internetexposes you), but, 2) anything on the internet, because it is only in part, isbound to create an inaccurate picture of who you are.

And,because the internet is some important, this existence we create on it can growto define a lot about us. you could even say that the existence you have on theinternet is what takes priority over every other first impression you try tocreate ever. I know, for example, that when I post something on facebook,

When we’retalking to people in person, we can control everything about ourselves tocreate an image. How we talk to them, what we say, how we look. On theinternet, everything we’ve ever posted can come back to haunt us; and thenpeople have this picture of our existence that we can’t control and that we maynot want to portray.

Basically, it all comes down tocontrol. We can control our image in reality, we can’t on the internet. Justsomething to think about.

Blog the First: Introduction

The following entry, my first entry, is inspired by ColtonAndChristine’s video #29, which is what I was watching when I decided to writethis.

 

I like blogging. I haven’t done a lot of it. But when I firsttried my hand on it during STC, it occurred to me that, in general, it’s areally cool way to express yourself. It’s not like talking to someone, becauseyou can use text, and pictures and videos and quotes; and everything you mightever want to use is right there at your fingertips. If you know there’s aspecific quote that will emphasize your point, but you can’t remember it, itwill only take a few seconds to find it and use it.

 

It’s a form of expression that’s outside of time. You can do anything you wantwhen you’re creating it, and no-one is watching to witness your mistakes oryour false starts. You have the ultimate control. You can put together anyimage you’d like.

 

Anyway, I love ColtonAndChristine’s video blog project, and whenI first heard of it, I was like “Wow,I am so doing that when I go to college!” But then I realized thatI have no experience with video and that if I want to learn, it’s going to takesome time and effort. And then I realized that, in the meantime, I have a hellof a lot to say during my Senior year at Raleigh Charter. I want there to be arecord.

 

Guys, if you’re reading, something occurred to me the other day.One day, you’ll be able to look back at your video blog and know who you werein your freshman year of college. Like, there will actually be a record ofyou—not only what you think and say, but how you look, where you were, how youspent your time, how you talked to each other. What kind of people you werethat you would start a video blog and talk about the kind of things you talkabout in it.

I want that, too. So, here goes. This is my try at recordkeeping. I love film. I’m going to try my hand at it eventually. For now, this.